Heidi's 9!

I can't even put into words how I'm feeling about my 1st born, my only daughter, the one person who made me a mother, the one who's called me "mommy" the longest, and the one person who taught me what true love really is turns 9 years today. 

First of all, how did I get old enough to have a 9 year old? Second, 9 is halfway to 18, meaning I've had her as long as it will take for her to become an adult... weird, right? Birthdays to me are always the happiest of times and a bit sad {at least for me, someone who struggles so bad with the passing of time}. Where did my baby go? Yet, I'm excited for what's to come with this little person I'm raising. 

I'm so proud of the person Heidi is becoming. As a new mom, I had no idea what I was doing when I had her. She was my guinea pig, my test baby for the ones to come. I've probably made more mistakes and had more challenges with Heidi because she was my first. I will forever have guilt for that fact and admiration for the fact that she still loves me even though I struggle at being her mom. 

She is beautiful, thoughtful, smart, loyal, easy going and laid back, adventurous and never puts up a fight when I throw random things at her. She is so incredibly different than me, and there have been so many times I've wished I could be more like her. 

I adore her. I cherish her. And I love her so much it hurts. She is my baby and I'm so lucky to call her mine. 

Happy Birthday, Heidi!