Friday, November 13, 2015

I am Thankful


I might not always appear to be happy, but I am always thankful.

My husband recently pointed out to me that I'm not truly a happy person. I argued, of course, because how can I not be a happy person? I live a good life, great actually, and work hard for all the things I want for my future. Sure, I might not wake up whistling a happy tune along with the morning birds but I'm by no means miserable. Afterall, life and everything in it is no cake walk, and everyday sees it's faults and downsides. I go to bed thankful I survived the day and fall asleep grateful that a new day has come.

I have moments where I question what the heck I'm doing on this planet and what my purpose/ role is; this does not mean I'm not thankful for everything I have right in front of me. I'm scared for what the future holds for my family and myself, because let's face it, the unknown is fleeting. My control freak tendencies are not a good match for the ruthlessness of an unknown future, especially while navigating through life raising three children who are depending on me not to screw things up. It's really quite stressful and overwhelming at times {maybe more often than not?}. But I am thankful.

Between my slight OCD ways, type A personality and motherhood as a whole, I'd say I run on stress, which can appear at times as unhappiness. I yell, cry, shut people out and bury myself in books or Netflix to find solace, but I am not a miserable person. I am thankful. I am grateful. I am happy.

I might have a bit of a life is always greener problem that will never go away, I'm afraid. I also have been known to dwell on the good things in my life and wonder when the shoe is going to drop... like, I can't really be this lucky. Maybe I exude those thoughts and emotions on the outside {as an uptight stress cake} and not as the happy I know is inside me. Just a thought.

I do, however, thank the Heavens everyday for the blessings I've been given in this life of mine. No life is perfect but I know mine is pretty close. I will continue to work towards being more happy or at least expressing my true happiness on the outside better {at least when my husband is around ;-)} and continuing to be thankful for having the privilege to wake up every morning in this life.

Since it is November, I'd love to know what you are thankful for?
Happy Friday, thanks for reading!

22 comments:

  1. Praise Jesus! We should all be a little more thankful <3

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    1. Especially with everything that is going on I our world today. Thank you for your thoughts.

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  2. I'm thankful for my education, family, and my boyfriend. What an inspiring post!

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    1. Those are all wonderful things to be thankful for. I hope you have a wonderful holiday season with your family!

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  3. I think being grateful helps to relieve stress and make you happy... but it is something I always have to work on!!

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    1. Glad to know I'm not the only one! At the end of a hard day, I think about all the great and wonderful things in my life and that really does relieve the stress. Thank you for sharing!

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  4. I like this quote, it's so simple yet super important. I agree, I might not always waking up singing, but I'm a happy person grateful for this life. I'm thankful that today the sun is shining and the snow is melting!

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    1. Oh how I would love some snow! It was 80 today but very Fall like for California. Thank you for sharing what your are thankful for.

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  5. I could have written this post Ashleigh. I stress about everything and worry about the path that we are on, but deep inside I am thankful for the blessings in my life. I guess it's the part about expressing that thankfulness/happiness is where I need to work on. Thanks for sharing so those of us that feel the same way don't feel so alone!

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    1. Glad to know I'm not the only one lol but yes, expressing the happy is so much harder than expressing the stress. Maybe a New Years resolution for us both?

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  6. I am thankful for my crazy, chaotic, loving life with triplets. There was a day that I didn't think I'd have one baby, let alone three! I am truly blessed!

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    1. Oh triplets, how wonderful!! I think that would be such a blessing! I bet your days are a bit chaotic but the joy you must receive outweighs that all! Thank you for sharing~

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  7. This all rings so true to me. I am trying to show my thankfulness and appreciation for all my blessings more and my stress less. Thank you for sharing and letting me know there are others who feel the same.

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    1. I guess admitting there is a problem is the first step to fixing it? At least that is what I'm telling myself. Together, we can work on showing the happy and overcoming the stress! Thank you for sharing!

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  8. You speak my language. My husband said the same thing to me not too long ago. It's not that we're unhappy, we just have ALOT going on and sometimes we just don't know how to handle it all. Stress is HUGE.. Hang in there! Keep your head high, and yes we have LOTS to be thankful for! Happy Weekend!

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  9. Love this! i'm the same way. My OCD and type A personality leads my husband to believe that I'm unhappy. But I LOVE my life. I'm so thankful for our nice home and financial stability and to be married to such an amazing man. I have so many wonderful things to be thankful for. :)

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  10. What a great reminder! Especially after everything happening in our world this weekend!

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  11. What a great post! I'm thankful that Jesus still loves us even when we've not been good to Him. I have food to eat, I have the use of my limbs, I get to see the light of a new day.

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  12. I read once that happiness is a journey, not a destination. I don't think any of us wakes up one day and think - okay NOW I've reached happiness! Nope - the ebbs and flows of life take you along for the ride. You are right - we just have to be grateful for the little moments in each day! Stopping by from Good Enuf Mommy @ManicMonday blog hop!

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  13. That's beautiful. We can all benefit from thinking about all the blessings we have, especially with all the sadness and scary things happening in the world right now. Thank you for the lovely reminder, and for sharing at the Manic Mondays blog hop.

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  14. As craptastic as some of my days are, I always, always, always try to find something in it that makes me smile. Thanks for sharing at the (mis)Adventures Mondays Blog Hop. I look forward to seeing what you share this week!

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  15. I have a hard time with that too. I know I have so many reasons to be happy, but I still find myself being stressed and unhappy more often than I would like.

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