Sunday, January 29, 2017

Motherhood Got Me Feeling a Little...

You guys, I'm having a total 'mom moment' right now, so be forewarned. I don't know what's been going on in the stars lately {maybe I should ask my mom} but my emotions have been all over the place. Can you relate?? I mean, one day I'm totally content and loving life and thinking everything is how and where it should be, then the next, I'm thinking nothing is how it should be, everything's a huge fat mess, and why should I even bother caring! It's exhausting.

I know we have all been there, mother or not, it's just an adult female thing that we do. However, when you throw motherhood into the mix, it get's a bit amplified. Now, I've been dealing with these batty mommy mood swings for over 10 years, so you'd think I'd have them under control by now. Ohhh no my friends, time doesn't seem to be a factor in the "mom's having a meltdown" period of life. It can just as easily happen to an experienced mom as it can a new mom, with no one being more surprised than the experienced mom, amiright?!

Let's talk about what's been happening to me as of late. Maybe it's this never ending winter or the fact I have only seen my dear friend, the Sun, a handful of times over the last few months but I'm starting to get a little... agoraphobic.... and not in the fun, let's stay home and lay in our jammies and build blanket forts and watch Netflix all day way. More like the kind where I'm searching for survival gear on Amazon and shutting the blinds when it's still light out and having the kids all fall asleep in the same room so I can see them all, kind of way.

I can remember each time I brought my babies home from the hospital and having a little bout of agoraphobia. I mean, I think that's a totally normal thing after you have a baby, right? But waking up one morning with three non-newborn children and thinking, "Hey, the world is a pretty crazy place, we should probably not leave the house for a while because something horrible is going to happen," while simultaneously planning your next family holiday abroad, is a smidge nuts. And while fighting the urge to lock everyone up in the basement {that's where the playroom is, I'm not really cray}, I have to act like the spunky, do it all mom I usually am, while slowing dying inside. Does anyone else have this problem?? Please tell me someone else goes through this. Because let me just say, this is not my first time dealing with these overprotective emotions that are seriously kicking my ass.

When you've got three kids who are all busy with activities throughout the week, there leaves very little time in the day to actually just sit and give in to these anxieties. And even if I could muster up a way to get my kids to be at home with me, where I could keep a watchful eye over them, they'd never let me. With school, sports, music lessons, playdates, church class and everything else we have planned during the week, these three little people who are the reason for my anxieties and wacky mommy moments, are the same three reasons I get out of the house each day. Kind of a twisted joke.


I'd love to hear how you deal with these emotions and if you've dealt with these sort of anxieties?
Have a wonderful week!


6 comments:

  1. Aww it's definitely hard balancing out motherly worries and the business of living. I try to pray when I find myself worried about something. I'll say an extra prayer for you <3

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    1. Thank you, Robyn, that would be so nice. I find that also helps for me. Have a great week!

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  2. My prayers are with you my love! I share the same concerns as well! I am so thankful for the power of prayer! I am also so proud of you too! Let's stay in touch!
    xo Debbie | www.tothineownstylebetrue.com

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    1. Thank you, Debbie, I appreciate the kind words. Prayer can be so powerful and healing in times of anxiety. It's nice to know other's are going through similar struggles and we can lean on each other for support! Have a nice week!

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  3. I am definitely getting more cranky the longer it stays cold and cloudy and crappy outside. My kids are driving me up the wall, no joke. I don't think I've every experienced the type of anxiety you're describing, but I'm getting anxious due to being cooped up all day. I hope you feel better soon. :)

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    1. Thank you Shani! Yes, not being able to get of the house to run around and play is so hard! I think it must be hard for the kids, too! This morning we woke up to a bright and happy sun, only it was 14 out lol then it started to snow. Even that little bit of sun made such a difference!

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